10 . Sitting here, I go through my mum's old journals, reading them very differently from the first time I found them.

It was a number of years ago, when I was twelve, I found ______ just lying around her ______ room. That day I read each line with growing ______ and horror. I couldn't believe that woman who fed me as a baby and read me fairy tales had written this. I will never forget the first line I read: “They all want to take me away and _______me！”

______ I thought of the other day, when she was ______ around the house. I was sitting at the dining room table with my grandmother, working on a five­thousand­piece puzzle   (拼图) that takes a ______ to solve. Suddenly, the front door was violently thrown open. My mother ran in screaming at the top of her lungs.

Then she ran into the room and shoved (推) our puzzle off the table, smashing it into the five thousand pieces we had ______. It scared me. ______, something was ______ my mother.

My ______ ended then, when the doctor told me she had hallucinations (幻想症).   I started to understand that her illness wasn't something I could ______. That was when I realized that other kids always ______ she was different when they came over to play.

I always wondered ______ I could do but there is no solution. But dealing with my mother has given me a different outlook on life. I try not to ______ my problems. If my mum starts making strange remarks, I leave the room and call someone. Just ______ is one of the best relax ways in the world. If there's no one to talk to, I ______ the violin or some other hobbies to forget about things for a time.

As I think about the past, I see that mum was ______ an entire life. Thankfully, I haven't been. To me, each day is just one piece of the ______, one piece among the thousands we spend our lives putting together, hoping it won't ______.